Lift

A cloudy but cool afternoon on the bay of Tokyo at the Bayside Marina in Kanazawa Ward of Yokohama.

Was thinking a lot about how to spend the time. Wanted to go inside the outlet mall, but knew I could not afford to buy anything even If I found something that I wanted.

Lift me up, don't let me fall.
I rely on you more than you know.
Faking strength and independence.
A weakling at heart and easily hurt.



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Nishi-Ku Foggy Night

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Night shot of spherical tank gas holder for pressurized city gas in Nishi Ward, Yokohama near Hiranumabashi Station.
ISO 800 for 2.0 sec. @ f/4.50
#ガスホルダー #ガスタンク #平沼橋 #西区 #横浜 #gasholder #gastank #Hiranumabashi #Yokohama #Japan

Foggy night shot of central Yokohama skyline from Motohiranuma Bridge in Yokohama, Japan

ISO 800 for 2.0 sec. @ f/10.00

#もとひらぬまばし #横浜駅 #帷子川 #横浜 #MotohiranumaBridge #KatabiraRiver #Yokohama #Japan

Night shot of spherical tank gas holders for pressurized city gas in Nishi Ward, Yokohama near Hiranumabashi Station.

ISO 800 for 2.0 sec. @ f/4.00

#ガスホルダー #ガスタンク #平沼橋 #西区 #横浜 #gasholder #gastank #Hiranumabashi #Yokohama #Japan

Foggy central Yokohama skyline at night from Motohiranuma Bridge in Yokohama, Japan

ISO 800 for 13.0 sec. @ f/20.00

#もとひらぬまばし #横浜駅 #横浜 #MotohiranumaBridge #Yokohama #Japan

Train arriving at Yokohama Station on foggy night in Yokohama, Japan

ISO 800 for 13.0 sec. @ f/20.00

#相鉄線 #横浜駅 #横浜 #SotetsuLine #YokohamaStation #Yokohama #Japan

Abstract long exposure of sidewalk rail along the Saiwai River near Yokohama Station.

ISO 800 for 6.0 sec. @ f/13.00

#幸川 #横浜駅 #横浜 #SaiwaiRiver #YokohamaStation #Yokohama #Japan

Long exposure of train departing Yokohama Station on foggy night.

ISO 800 for 20.0 sec. @ f/29.00

#相鉄線 #横浜駅 #横浜 #SotetsuLine #YokohamaStation #Yokohama #Japan

Rain drenched rose on sidewalk near Yokohama Station.
ISO 800 for 5.0 sec. @ f/10.00

#バラ #紅いバラ #紅い薔薇 #rose #redrose

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Outdoor artwork reflected in pond, Minato Mirai seaside business district, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 400 for 1/40 sec. @ f/8.00

#アート #プール #みなとみらい #横浜 #artwork #pond #MM21 #Yokohama #Japan

View of Yokohama Bay Bridge from Rinko Park, Minato Mirai seaside business district, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/80 sec. @ f/11.00

#横浜ベイブリッジ #臨港パーク #みなとみらい #横浜 #YokohamaBayBridge #RinkoPark #MM21 #Yokohama #Japan

View of Yokohama Bay Bridge from Minato Mirai seaside business district, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 400 for 1/250 sec. @ f/9.00

#横浜ベイブリッジ #みなとみらい #横浜 #YokohamaBayBridge #MM21 #Yokohama #Japan

Cosmo Clock 21 Ferris wheel in the Minato Mirai seaside business district, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 800 for 1/250 sec. @ f/8.00

#コスモクロック21 #観覧車 #みなとみらい #横浜 #CosmoClock21 #Ferriswheel #MM21 #Yokohama #Japan

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Kanazawa-Hakkei Umi-no-Koen

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Yacht cruisers at Yokohama Bayside Marina, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/320 sec. @ f/11

#マリナ #ベイサイドマリナ #横浜 #YokohamaBaysideMarina #Yokohama #Japan

Tall red and white industrial container cranes at small dock in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/400 sec. @ f/11

#クレーン #金沢八景 #横浜 #港 #containercrane #PortofYokohama #Yokohama #Japan

Dinghies and sailboats in storage at Yokohama Bayside Marina in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/320 sec. @ f/11

#横浜ベイサイドマリナ #横浜 #ヨット #dinghy #YokohamaBaysideMarina #Yokohama #Japan

Roof structure of Yokohama Bayside Marina pier entrance in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/200 sec. @ f/8

#横浜ベイサイドマリナ #横浜 #YokohamaBaysideMarina #Yokohama #Japan

Dale-chan taking a break after swimming in the ocean and catching baseballs all afternoon in Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/160 sec. @ f/6.5

#犬 #ボーダーコリー #bordercollie #Yokohama #Japan

Dale-chan the border collie panting in the summer heat at a dog run in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/250 sec. @ f/5.6

#犬 #ボーダーコリー #海 #bordercollie #Yokohama #Japan

Small cabin cruiser in rack storage at Yokohama Bayside Marina in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 100 for 1/200 sec. @ f/11

#海の公園 #横浜 #ヨット #cruiser #boat #cabincruiser #YokohamaBaysideMarina #Yokohama #Japan

Parents and their kids gathering clams and trough shells at the Marine Park beach in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/250 sec. @ f/5.6

#横浜ベイサイドマリナ #横浜 #潮干狩り #clamhunt #troughshellhunt #beach #UminoKoen #MarinePark #Yokohama #Japan

Dale-chan getting her coat dirty playing catch at a dusty dog run in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 800 for 1/125 sec. @ f/5.6

#犬 #ボーダーコリー #ドッグラン #bordercollie #dogrun #Yokohama #Japan

Dale-chan the border collie trying to get her ball out of the salty sea water, Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 100 for 1/160 sec. @ f/4.5

#犬 #ボーダーコリー #海 #bordercollie #beach #Yokohama #Japan

Dale-chan the border collie cooling off at the beach in Kanazawa-Hakkei, Yokohama, Japan.

ISO 200 for 1/160 sec. @ f/4.5

#犬 #ボーダーコリー #海 #bordercollie #beach #Yokohama #Japan

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Gone

I am sorry I ignored your pleas.

I am sorry I left you alone.

I am sorry I turned your life upside down.

I am sorry I wreaked havoc with your sanity.

I am sorry I was weak.

I am sorry I was cold.

I am sorry I crushed your dreams.

I am sorry I was selfish.

I am sorry I was a man-child.

I am sorry you died alone.

I am sorry you are no more.

I miss you.

Relieve the Pain

She can talk in short two or three word phrases, but can't make a standard sentence. 

Sometimes there is a mismatch between question given and the answer received. It's really confusing because I don't know if she understood me but didn't know how to reply. Or, she misunderstood me and replied to the wrong question.

I found a nice apartment that was quite cheap with a completely barrier free interior. The toilet, the entranceway, and the bathroom have been totally remodeled to accommodate a person needing nursing care or hospice care.

With all the fees and the moving company fees it looks like it will cost about ¥500,000 to move into that apartment. I think I have about ¥17,000 in cash and nothing in savings.

I was hoping that her father would come through and help out but he is in a kind of shock that his daughter is so severely disabled. I don't think he understands the gravity of the situation.

The apartment would have been great. It would be a great place for her to continue her rehabilitation, has an extra room for my father-in-law, and a big enough room for her and a hospital bed.

Probably the worst experience for me is to see her suffering and not be able to do anything to help or to relieve her pain.

This past week has brought a thought to the forefront in my mind, "What is the purpose of living?"

We live, we suffer; we work, we suffer; and we age, and die. 

Razu

My ex adopted three dogs while living in an apartment that doesn't allow pets. To make matters worse, he was on welfare. Welfare recipients are not allowed to keep pets. 

Dale the Border Collie

The first dog he brought to my home and I helped raise her. The second and third dog he left on my doorstep just before he escaped from the police.

Mary the Miniature Pinscher

Razu the Border Collie

 

On January 4th, 2016, Razu fell seriously ill and passed away at the home of his forever family after I rescued him. 

Needless to say, I was very shocked. He was only a year and a half. As with most border collies, he rambunctious during playtime, but was very, very gentle and loved people. 

Goodbye little fella! Please know that you are deeply loved and will be sorely missed. If there is a heaven, and I'm able to go there, I hope to see you and my furry family members at that time.

Love and miss you, Razu!